As I now reflect on the impact that this will have on my mortal life, it suddenly dawns on me. Your ways are clearly not my ways and your thoughts elevated high above my human comprehension. I realize now that life is not simply about the good, the majestic, the moments when you feel like you are walking on centre stage and having everyone applauding your achievements. Life is also about the negative, the unexpected bad news, the heartache of a failed friendship or a crumbling marriage. Often when life decides to hit you foursquare between the eyes and you stagger into a corner where you feel like camping out and never making a comeback, it is then that something profound happens. It is in those awkward and often scary moments when you stretch me beyond my own abilities. Those moments when I feel so vulnerable and alone are the moments when you allow one area to die so that it makes room for a new blossom to appear. When one door closes you already have your hand on another keeping it ajar for me to enter.
I understand now that in as much as the news of today will leave me mourning my loss for a while, I understand now that it is your gentle way to remind me that the time has come for me to branch out. I have to laugh now at myself for I have often misread you. I thought you were uninvolved in my complexities, when all along you have waited for me to take hold of the title deed to a new area in my life which I have not explored yet. My laughter now is growing louder because I now understand why I will experience hurt and pain. It is because my life is making room for greater, much loftier things to happen.
I am at peace, I am renewed, I am tracing your footsteps, I am listening to the echoes in your voice to take me to another, yet more fantastic place.
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